Today 4-16-12

Today I'm sitting here just thinking about everything that is going on in my life,I feel so much joy in all God has given me.I have been struggling for the past few weeks with feeling a little overwhelmed with all the things I feel like I need to do or get done before baby comes,I've been praying a lot about this. I am so incredibly thankful for my husband,without him I would be completly lost in all of this.He has kept me sane,all the little things have meant so much.He comes home after working all day and will start doing whatever is needed around the house,washing dishes,laundry,working in the garden,just whatever needs to be done.But without any complaint!He rubs my feet every night,without any complaint!He is a saint!I thank God for him!


I have had my crazy days for sure,I've held it together pretty good but sometimes I just can't keep it together.I'm so unbelieveably excited about this new little one coming into our lives,but I will admit that I have my fears and worries about his or her arrival too.I worry that I won't have enough time for Eli and Ava,that they will be resentful.They are both so excited right now and I don't ever want them to feel like we've replaced them.Is this fear totally irrational??We are so used to our routine and I'm scared of how drastically things will change,like I said I am just so thankful for my husband,for his involvment,for his patience and for his love for me and our family.


I know once baby B get here everything will fall into place,it will take a little time.I try to be very positive and not worry,God does not want that for me.I feel like I just need to get all of this out of my head sometimes and just written down. Just a few more weeks and I will be a mother of 3!!!Wow,this pregnancy has really gone by so quickly.I will get an ultra sound done this week to see how big baby is and if he thinks they baby is too big he will schedule to induce me the following week!So anyday now really,so why is my hospital bag not packed!!!!?????Like I said,I get a little crazy thinking about all these things.