The Best Days Of My Life...

Yesterday was Mother's Day.

I look foward to this day, sleeping in, breakfast in bed and not feeling guilty about everyone else doing all the housework while I do nothing. We went to visit my mom and spent the day there.

Yesterday morning after snuggling with Evelyn,who woke up at 5:30. Ricky took her downstairs so I could sleep. The kids brought me breakfast in bed. After I ate, Eli crawled in bed with me and we slept for a few hours. I'll just say, sleeping late is overrated. I felt so much more tired after all of that sleep. My body must not be used to it. Or maybe, I just needed more.

Every year, I realize how very blessed I am to have these children. Some days are so hard and exhausting. But if I do anything good in this life, I want it to be that I was a good mother. I want them to have good memories of their childhood, I want them to always feel loved and wanted. There are days where I feel like I'm doing it all wrong and there are days that I pat myself on the back. Its a rollarcoaster,everyday is full of surprises. I am not a perfect mother, but my kids know I love them.

Yesterday reminded me of how fast they are growing. This was my 11th Mother's Day. That doesn't sound right. I was reminded to slow down, stop rushing, look at them in the eye when they're talking to me, really listen to what they want to tell me. The house can wait, everyone else can wait, but right now childhood is right here, right on my front step, and its like the wind. Soon it will be gone and I'll have nothing but the memory, but today its here. Today it belongs to us and I won't waste it, I won't wish it away, I won't rush though it to get to the next step. I'll stop, take a deep breathe, a good look, because these are the best days of my life. Right here. Right now, among all the wildness, the noise, the laughter, the tears, the sleepless nights, the days I feel like I'm not doing this right, the days I feel like I am. This is my life right now and I will embrace it.

Last night when I was telling Eli goodnight, he asked me to just stay and lay there with him for a while. I am usually rushing them to bed because its a schol night. But for some reason, I didn't want to rush anymore. I stayed. I laid there with him until he fell asleep. Looking at him, I saw that he's still little. He's taller than me now, but he's still little. He still needs me and wants me there. And I want to be there. I watched him sleep for a while and prayed that God would lead his life in the direction He wants. I pray that God will use him and that Eli will follow Him. I prayed for his future.
This morning when I dropped him off at school, he asked me to come to his field day this week. This is a big deal. Eli has not really wanted us at his school this year, at all. So, I'll take it! I will so take it.

This is the last week of school, we can not wait for the summer! Its right around the corner. I can't wait for our days together, no rushing, just enjoying each other and life. BRING IT ON!

                                           I hope you all had a great Mother's Day!