This moment

It's dark in this room and I'm rocking my baby who is looking more like a big girl everyday. Her eyes have finally closed and now she's off to sleep. I set here holding her, exhausted and wanting to take myself to my room and go to sleep but I just want to be here a little longer, just hold her a few more minutes. She's growing so fast. Right before my eyes. I look at her and wonder.... Who will she grow up to be? Will she be tall or petite? Will her hair always be blonde or will it darken like her daddy's? Will she be a leader or a follower? How will her voice sound when she's older? It's so hard to see those things now but they will be here soon. Tonight while I rocked her it took her a while to just let her body rest she wiggled around for a few minutes and so sweetly raised her head to kiss me over and over. These moments I want to always remember. Every sweet moment like this. Today was hard, I'm tired from a busy week and little rest but in this moment, the one I'm in right now I want to hold this one in my mind forever. Her sweet soft head resting on my chest and her chubby arms wrapped around my waist. This, this is what life is all about. Thank you God for this. This song is playing over and over in my head right now......

🎶Your little hand's wrapped around my finger

And it's so quiet in the world tonight

Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming

So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have, honey

If you could stay like that

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart

And no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up, never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies

And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off

At 14 there's just so much you can't do

And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block

Remember that she's getting older too

And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple

No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred

And even though you want to, just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room

Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home

Remember the footsteps, remember the words said

And all your little brother's favorite songs

I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment

In a big city, they just dropped me off

It's so much colder that I thought it would be

So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up

I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

I could still be little

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

It could still be simple

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple

Won't let nobody hurt you

Won't let no one break your heart

And even though you want to, please try to never grow up

Oh, don't you ever grow up

Oh, never grow up, just never grow up🎶

Now I have two big kids in my bed waiting on me for movie night, well three if you include Ricky;)