A year ago....

All week I've been letting my mind wander back to that day. I've been busy, running around getting the last little finishng touches for her big day. I'm exhausted, but so happy.Its bittersweet. I can't believe it's been a year. I remember every detail of that day.


I remember the night before how I was excited and nervous, how I couldn't believe that I would soon be a mother of three. I couldn't sleep that night, it felt like Christmas eve. I remember how Eli and Ava were so excited they couldn't sleep, they could not wait to meet their baby.


It's hard to believe a year ago I didn't know I had another girl.

I remember going in that morning I remember the drive to the hospital and being irritated that we were running late.I remember looking at the clouds as we were driving and thanking God for this baby. I prayed for a smooth delivery. We arrived and when I saw the table where they would put her, it felt unreal to me. My preganancy was a bit of a planned surprise, if that makes any sense at all. And it went by so fast.  I remember everyone arriving and the excitment we all felt. We all couldn't wait to meet this baby. Anna was sure we were having a boy and Ricky knew it was a girl.

I remember how thirsty and hungry I was. That was the worst, the worst ever. The t.v. was on and every commmercial was food or drink related. every.single.one. My ice chips and chapstick were my bestfriend!

 I remember the epidural being very scary and trying really hard not to freak out, I didn't like not being able to feel my body. It was so intense and nothing like my other two.  I remember how fast the day went, it just flew by.

The moment I heard the words I had been waiting for, dreaming of... it was surreal.

Its a girl.......I was so happy! I wanted either one. I never cared .

She scared us a lot those first few minutes. There was no cry, there were nurses, they were all surronding her. I still didn't hear a cry and I remember I kept looking at Ricky, hoping we would hear it very soon, I'm sure it was only a minute but it seemed like forever. The moment we heard her cry was beautiful, I'll never for get it.

She came into our lives 1 year ago, and she has changed each of us, Eli has shown me such a soft side of him. He loves her so much, he baby talks her and kind of has his own little launguge with her:) Ava has shown me that she is an amazing big sister, she loves to play with her, comfort her and do anything to help me out. They have been such a blessing this year and I don't know what I would do without them.

The moment we brought her home, it seemed so right. She belonged. She fit right in.

The nights that were long, I told myself, cherish this. You will blink your eyes and it will be gone. Sleep will come. She will only be little for a little while. This year has flown by, faster than I could have ever imagined. I want to hang on to it. She has blessed our family beyond what we could have ever asked for . She has made us complete.

The days are shorter and so busy but I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world.

My sweet baby who loves to be tickled, eats like she's starving and doesn't take a breath, shows off her 4 teeth any chance she gets,puts everything in her mouth, loves her brother and sister and her doggy Charlie, takes long naps, always smiles, and loves hair bows in her hair. Its hard to beleive you're one. I look foward to all the years to come my sweet,sweet girl.


So tomarrow we will celebrate with family, friends, cake and presents the birthday of our sweet Evelyn June. She's quite possibly the most loved baby ever.

I'm extremely tired so excuse any rambling.